SHE / HER
"At 23 I came out as a gay man to my pastor, that was met with the laying on of hands and deliverance from demons.
I moved to Waimate and had three different pastors having a go at setting me free from demons. At this point, I was as a man, a gay man, I also had asperges and dissociative identity disorder, which to them were all demons, literal demons living inside my body. So that scared the hell out of me.
A speaker called Sy Rogers came to New Zealand, he claimed he’d been set free from being transgender. It was the first time I had even heard of being transgender. I knew about drag queens, I knew about cross dresses. Yeah, I didn't honestly know that being transgender existed.
Once I realised this was who I was, It was amazing like being on a high. I would go to dressmart and buy clothes and hide them in the cupboard and dress up when there was nobody in the house. It was fun experimenting, but it was also a secret at the same time.
These days I’m helping people who have had similar experiences by being able to relate to them. That's why I work as a counsellor for outline. I kind of think, if only I had had someone like me now to talk to when I was younger, and figuring it out."